a bit over a week since my last post, i thought i should share some thoughts that seem logical and weird that came up through my conversations with my colleagues at work.
1. a way of determining wat a person's potential is at birth and the best way of utilising it.
- this means that as soon as you are born, you will be brought up in the way which will make the most out of you. Since it includes brought up, you will actually be educated in the way to brainwash you thinking that you should not sway from the path you are meant to take. In doing so, you will thoroughly enjoy what you are doing and be very happy bout it. Sounds good right? Now examples: a US President at birth, going through education to teach him how to lead and bla bla bla - Great! a perfect leader; a celebrity at birth, learning how to entertain from birth - better entertainer than any we have seen, so must be good!; a garbage collector from birth - definitely gonna have clean streets with garbage collectors totally focused and love their jobs. But wait, is this really a good way forward? No one is actually unhappy but the happiness seems artificial. E.g. the garbage collector will be brainwashed to thinking doing any other job is stressful and they will end up being violent bla bla bla. On the other hand, it seems fair. A CEOs son will no longer automatically receive quality education, afterall his son might have better potential to be the security guard outside his dad's building. But, on a more serious note, a person's life will be determined at birth, can that still be called a life?
Having written this much, i think i shall leave the rest for the next post. In my opinion, the first one has already got enough material for you to think about for some time. A snippet to part 2: a machine that can determine it all.
Tuesday, 24 May 2011
Friday, 13 May 2011
1 year and 10 days on...
been too long since i trash this blog... i guess trying to adjust to this working life is the big reason why
it's interesting how ppl change when going thru all the diff phases of life, at least for me everytime there's visible changes that i feel. i still remember first day of form 5, last year in school and SPM was the all important thing of the year and yet the one discussion that i remember from that day was my friends and i gathered in the canteen talking about 'So what now?'. Things have moved on beyond what we all might expect from then. In fairness, most of us at that time have pretty much known what is going to happen. You finish standard one you go standard two and so on. Even when moving from primary to secondary it was just moving to that building across the street. That day, we saw the incoming crossroads. There is no clear direction after finishing that year. Form 6? A levels? Local? Abroad? all sort of questions came about. Unfortunately, probably the most important one is what do you want to do? And this is the question i couldn't answer then, and not sure if i can entirely answer it now.
Back to changes, after form 5 i went college. No one i knew went there. Everyone was a new face to me, even the experience of boarding school plus co ed education was new to me. Nevertheless, that 18 months was probably the time when i lived the healthiest lifestyle ill ever have, especially since the school is in the middle of no where surrounded by greens. The time there was very enjoyable to me as i met quite a few friends during my short time, understood how to be independent and most importantly taking it easy. Good or bad times does come to an end. And it was a short 18 months there (already extended as i left and returned to the place).
Next stop was uni. Picked LSE, by fate or my carelessness i missed my cambridge interview. Do i regret that terribly? im not too sure what i missed so i cant say much about it. One thing's for sure: Everything will be different. I might turn out to be an academic had i went there. Eitherway, it's not about what i missed in my life in this post. LSE yet again was another step forward in terms of being independent. Till today, it still surprised me how i wasn't intimidated with the idea of living in a foreign country all on my own. Perhaps deep inside my heart, it was what i wanted all along. 3 years in LSE, done lots of things, know lots of people, learned lots of things (don't mean the lectures which i often missed or slept through) and experienced lots of things. However, i must admit that over the 3 years i grew more and more disillusioned and losing interest in my degree altogether. Luckily for me, even in the darkest days (blacking out in an exam hall.. i tried that) i still survive. At the end, i decided not to attend graduation ceremony. Everyone looks at me and asks why in the most astonishing way. My reply: Why should I attend?. If graduation ceremony is the defining moment of someone's life, then i may have made a mistake but in my opinion that is a very pitiful life. Life should be more than that, i hope.
After uni i joined my current job. Most would think that this is not that big a step from LSE since afterall im still in london, nothing's much changed. They cannot be more wrong than that. Word of warning to all students out there (something no one warned me): Unlike education and exams, where there is a clear definition of success, clear view on where is the finish line, clear understanding of what lies ahead, working is the total opposite, you will spend most of your career putting yourself in a dark room navigating your way by just trying everything you can. Do not misunderstand me. I love my job, its great fun everyday joking with my colleagues and learning new things.
But the same question returns to haunt me: What do i want to do? What do i hope to achieve in life? WHAT IS LIFE in the first place? i cant answer even that. Have i lost myself?? maybe im just having my midlife crisis way earlier than anybody. Hopefully, and i really really do hope so, i will discover this soon. Not too sure how long i can last as i am. Then again, that is what i always think and everytime i pulled it through.
it's interesting how ppl change when going thru all the diff phases of life, at least for me everytime there's visible changes that i feel. i still remember first day of form 5, last year in school and SPM was the all important thing of the year and yet the one discussion that i remember from that day was my friends and i gathered in the canteen talking about 'So what now?'. Things have moved on beyond what we all might expect from then. In fairness, most of us at that time have pretty much known what is going to happen. You finish standard one you go standard two and so on. Even when moving from primary to secondary it was just moving to that building across the street. That day, we saw the incoming crossroads. There is no clear direction after finishing that year. Form 6? A levels? Local? Abroad? all sort of questions came about. Unfortunately, probably the most important one is what do you want to do? And this is the question i couldn't answer then, and not sure if i can entirely answer it now.
Back to changes, after form 5 i went college. No one i knew went there. Everyone was a new face to me, even the experience of boarding school plus co ed education was new to me. Nevertheless, that 18 months was probably the time when i lived the healthiest lifestyle ill ever have, especially since the school is in the middle of no where surrounded by greens. The time there was very enjoyable to me as i met quite a few friends during my short time, understood how to be independent and most importantly taking it easy. Good or bad times does come to an end. And it was a short 18 months there (already extended as i left and returned to the place).
Next stop was uni. Picked LSE, by fate or my carelessness i missed my cambridge interview. Do i regret that terribly? im not too sure what i missed so i cant say much about it. One thing's for sure: Everything will be different. I might turn out to be an academic had i went there. Eitherway, it's not about what i missed in my life in this post. LSE yet again was another step forward in terms of being independent. Till today, it still surprised me how i wasn't intimidated with the idea of living in a foreign country all on my own. Perhaps deep inside my heart, it was what i wanted all along. 3 years in LSE, done lots of things, know lots of people, learned lots of things (don't mean the lectures which i often missed or slept through) and experienced lots of things. However, i must admit that over the 3 years i grew more and more disillusioned and losing interest in my degree altogether. Luckily for me, even in the darkest days (blacking out in an exam hall.. i tried that) i still survive. At the end, i decided not to attend graduation ceremony. Everyone looks at me and asks why in the most astonishing way. My reply: Why should I attend?. If graduation ceremony is the defining moment of someone's life, then i may have made a mistake but in my opinion that is a very pitiful life. Life should be more than that, i hope.
After uni i joined my current job. Most would think that this is not that big a step from LSE since afterall im still in london, nothing's much changed. They cannot be more wrong than that. Word of warning to all students out there (something no one warned me): Unlike education and exams, where there is a clear definition of success, clear view on where is the finish line, clear understanding of what lies ahead, working is the total opposite, you will spend most of your career putting yourself in a dark room navigating your way by just trying everything you can. Do not misunderstand me. I love my job, its great fun everyday joking with my colleagues and learning new things.
But the same question returns to haunt me: What do i want to do? What do i hope to achieve in life? WHAT IS LIFE in the first place? i cant answer even that. Have i lost myself?? maybe im just having my midlife crisis way earlier than anybody. Hopefully, and i really really do hope so, i will discover this soon. Not too sure how long i can last as i am. Then again, that is what i always think and everytime i pulled it through.
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